Topics Started by Evidently Apostate

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i am finding it hard to pray with my children
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. experiences
i have been fading for 6 months but my wife is still in and always asks me to pray at dinner and when i put the little ones to bed but i am finding prayer to be more of a pretense than heartfelt.

i have to pray for the sun or the earth but why thank him for the food, hell thank me for going to work everyday .who put us in the house we live in, god?

its really hard for me to pray for anything anymore as i have an anger toward him and dont want anything to do with a future (mythical)paradise under his control, so why ask for it?.
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Did you DF yourself on purpose?
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. friends
lately i have been thinking about saying something apostate to my elder father in law.

he is an uber witness and actually believed that god interveined and saved him when he had a heart attack and kept him alive, until he told me that and i asked him why jehovah allowed jws in nazi concentration camps to suffer horribly and die but he loved an alcoholic more than them.. i havent been to a kh in 6 months or in service in years.

i grew a beard and basicallyhe avoids talking to me.
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losing my religion
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. friends
have you kept your faith in god?

i know this has been discussed but i am suprised at my change in beliefs.

imo pretty much all of the hebrew scriptures are about an angry god who reminds me of an abusive father.
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the cult is slowly taking my family apart
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. experiences
its been 3 years since i made my decision to fade and i am starting to think our marriage might not survive.

my wife is under pressure from her parents to push away from me.

the anniversay card they gave her(not me) was nothing more than jw propaganda, parts were actually highlighted.
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Was it the doctrine or the control that woke you up?
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. experiences
even though i knew some of the doctrines were so convoluted they couldnt be genuine, every prophecy mentioned in the bible was simplistic and direct i still felt it was the best place to raise a family.

i felt like i could ignore the hypocrisy, manipulative and fake personalities and still have true friends and unbreakable family bonds.

even though my concience would bother me i would always try to forgive.
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Do they announce when a pioneer steps down at your hall?
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. friends
during the announcements they stop to bring up an elder and he states " hairy mary is no longer a pioneer" (not a real name) in a tone very similar to a disfellowshipping.

i have heard it twice now but only from the hall my wife attends now.. anyone else hear of this?.
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I am finding peace among the madness thank you very much!
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. friends
a couple years ago i was watching my son progress to the point of baptism.

it was then that my subconsious began making me see that people in the org will put the doctrine above anything especially if it allows them to remain mentally and physically lazy or saves them some money.

the thought of my son in a robot like mentality truly awakened me and i couold see much of his motivation was from outside sources and not of his own initiative which caused me to put a stop to the process as he only had a last set of questions to go over before the plunge.. this caused quite a stir with the family including my wife who was opposed to anything that would stop her son from getting baptized, i told the elder conducting the questions that my son was not ready and he accepted that without asking questions.
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what about a donation box for the poor?
by Evidently Apostate in
1. watchtower
2. beliefs
one of the things i hate most about this corporate religion is they have a money box for many things that "bring praise to jah".

wordwide work.

convention expenses.
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did they talk about jesus at your memorial?
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. friends
ours might have spent 10 minutes on the sacrifice of jesus.

he must have spent 15 minutes on how we have almost no hope of being chosen and gave the same stats other threads are mentioning 18 mil 11k eating blah, blah.

i am thinking they are in damage control with the increasing numbers of partakers.
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the elders want to come by for a visit
by Evidently Apostate in
1. jw
2. experiences
they caught up with me at the meeting today which was the first one i have been to an a couple months.

i also missed the co's visit and the circuit assembly and havent been out in fs in 8 months or more.

i only went today for my wifes benefit i personally have a hard time listening to thier one sided warped view of the world.